Okay - so it's official! I am worst blogger EVER! Why doesn't anyone ever tell you how busy life is with children? Working or stay at home - doesn't matter! I've done both now and I can tell you - life is BUSY!
I think I recently posted that Danny, the girls and I are back in Hernando, MS. We are happy. Life is good! Life is perfect! My mom lives with us which is such a blessing, we have a church family that feels like REAL family in Longview Point Baptist Church. 2 girls, a 17 year old dog, house full of toys - life is good... Life is comfortable. I think God has such a sense of humor sometimes :)
Right in the midst of our comfort - God has changed things up. Danny and I both desired to adopt Olivia in the beginning of our marriage. Granted we waited 8 years to do it, but we always knew we wanted to. After we adopted Olivia, we wanted to wait to until after her heart surgery so we could fully devote ourselves to her. Not long after her surgery - we found out Miss Evelyn Elle was on the way the coming August. What a joy she has been to our family. What a joy to watch sisters bond.
Our church does an annual Global Impact Conference (we came to the one in 2013 which is what prompted our move back to Hernando) and during the 2014 conference, God began to work on me big time. He was no doubt preparing my heart for another adoption. Danny and I discussed it, but we just didn't have a direction. He had not brought us a child to adopt and we didn't know where to start (the adoption process isn't for the faint of heart. Can I get an Amen from my adoption brothers and sisters??). So, we decided to wait. Just to wait on God. So, we waited.... And waited... And waited... It began to feel like a distant memory (you know - over that lifetime month or two) that God had put upon my hearts. And then, there she was. There she was in perfectness yet brokenness. As we began to look further into her and her file - the world said NO! No! The news was awful and devastating. Doctors, cardiologists, were surprised she was even alive. But she is! God has sustained her. She is sick -sick indeed. She has complex and complicated CHD - worse than Olivia b/c she is almost 3 and has never had a heart catch, much less a surgery that she desperately needed in infancy. As a result - she has developed severe pulmonary hypertension. This, the doctors say, most likely makes her inoperable. It most likely is not reversible. We are scared. We are, however, holding onto hope in Him who has sustained her thus far. There is no doubt that He has led us to her! She is ours - even though humanly I know it seems crazy. Please pray for us on this journey. We have NO IDEA what to expect. We are trying to expedite anything and everything to get her home and into our medical care system. We hold onto hope that something, anything can be done - though it may be only giving her a family to walk into the arms of Jesus. Either way - she is worth it. Our God is worth it. We feel honored to be called. We feel blessed He has chosen to entrust her to us.
Nothing is for sure - we have not received pre-approval yet so nothing is a guarantee. All the more need for prayer - prayer for God's will to be done. This sweet baby needs a mommy and daddy (and 2 adoring sisters) - and I pray and believe that we are that family. We know many of you may not understand - quite frankly, we don't either. However, all we need to know is that God is calling. At this point - no approvals have been given so we pray the US and China both agree that she is ours.
I will post more in the coming days. I'm sure we will have more prayer requests and needs arise. Right now - we just pray and I am working around the clock on adoption paperwork.:)
Olivia and Elle are wonderful. Olivia is only disappointed it's not a boy, b/c as she says "I've never had a boy before" :)
BTW - aren't those cheeks the most edible things you've ever seen :)
Much Love and More to Come,
Danny and Julie
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